I woke up early and went to office early without eating my breakfast. I really don't eat breakfast. Weird tummy, it get sore if I ate breakfast. Brunch can do.

But now, I need to eat breakfast. Because I need to take medicine. Yes, I am sick again. Maybe due to over work (and I'm still working!), over thinking, over stress, over OVER.

Err. Eat breakfast. Eat lunch. Eat dinner. I hate being sick because I need to eat! Grrr.

When I arrived in our office, I opened my monitor (I don't shut down my computer for some technical reasons) and opened the system that I developed. Grab my mug in my locker; I'm about to make a chocolate drink and buy tuna sandwich at the cafeteria. As I look at my monitor, the magic page came out. The page that programmers afraid to see!


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Runtime Error?! grr. Hate it! I checked it and double checked it. I hate it, i hate it, and i hate it! Why is that freakin' error showed up? I tested the system yesterday and everything's fine.

Then my officemate message me.

Him: Vanny Vanz, there's an error when I sent new application blah blah blah..
Me: Wow. Good start of the day, huh? No good morning, no hi, no hello? Btw, Ok ok. I'll check it after I fix the error in blah blah blah.
Him: Okiedokie.. Sorry. Good AM. Hehe.
Me: *thinking of what to say*
Me: (trying to pass the responsibility. :p) Try to resend it using another RM's account. If the error still exists blah blah blah..
Him: I already tried it. I'll capture the error then I'll send it to your email.
Me: *disappointed* Ok. Thanks. I'll test the program in server first.
Him: Unfortunately, the server is down. It will be up after lunch.
Me: (murmuring) wtf!

Grrr. Error error error! What on earth do you exist for? *sniff sniff*

Then there you go.. My chocolate drink was turned to water. And my tuna sandwich was turned to Skyflakes. And I have six major errors in my program to fix.

Whooah. What a mouth-watering breakfast for me huh?

Labels: WORK Matters

Just sharing the proof of how *insert-here-what-you-can-call-us* we are when we he over reheat the All Meat Pizza.

Before =)


After =(


What happened? He subconsciously microwaved the pizza and turned the timer to 5 minutes!

Then we just stared to each other. So many words need to utter. So many issues need to talk. So many MANY, but we don't know what we are going to say first.

Then there you go, I broke the silence by screaming, "The pizza!".

He run to the kitchen (if you can call it a kitchen in a studio-type pad) and opened the microwave then there is the smoke in every corner of my pad. I asked him to get rid of the smoke because the fire detector will alarm and it is so embarrassing the whole building will panic because of a rotten pizza.

Nice start of talking, huh? Tsk tsk.

Labels: THINGS Cost A Love

Our so-called relationship friendship is about to come down, just like a sunset. For some time, we won't see it. But surely it will rise again in the right time. And by that time, we will face everyone and give them the mesmerizing sun breeze of this [insert here whatever relationship we have].


If only we can hold tight the sun and blow away whatever flaw it has
Sometimes, the sun sets to give way for a better sunrise. Maybe the sun sets because the sun itself realize that something is missing or something is too much. So that next time it rises, it can give the best sunrise you'll ever see.


Looks like even the rays of the sun is setting the couple apart
But before the sun sets, we know that it gave the most brightest thing we ever see. The most romantic and the most wanted-to-see scenario.


I know, whatever happens, you will always be there. And same here, I can't erase you in my memory. We will always have this important place in each other's life. This time what we see is a sunset. But sooner or later, we will see the sunrise. That's for sure. Whatever he say. Whatever she say. Whatever they say. I know that we will see the sunrise, again.


Images was taken in Puerto Galera last May 24, 2008.

Labels: Confession of a Fickle Mind

I swam for a while. Till i drowned.

I went to the shore. Take a rest. And saw a mountain.

I climb up to the peak. Till wild animals tried to eat me alive.

I fell but manage to stand up. Take a rest. And saw a bed.

I lay down and try to dream. But what I got is nightmares.



See, how hard I tried to work it out?

Now, I'm already awake. And I am begging myself not to sleep again.

Because Cinderella is not supposed to sleep for so long. It's Sleeping Beauty's job.

That's the thing about the truth. It comes out of bound, sooner or later.

So Cinderella is asking you Sleeping Beauty, what are you gonna do with that truth you are holding? Are you gonna blame it all to Cinderella? Or accept the fact that Prince Charming is giving you a poisonous apple that somehow makes you a Snow White? Y_Y

Labels: Confession of a Fickle Mind

It's 11AM and my officemate is asking where are we gonna eat lunch. I answered her, That's the hardest question I ever encountered. ^_^

Deciding where to eat and what to eat is verrrry hard for me. It's as if you're asking a 1 year old baby how to debug a program if there's an error. Weeeh.

11:30AM. Lunch time for us. We get ready to eat lunch. But noone knows where are we gonna eat. After so many arguements who gonna decide, my other officemate ask if we want to try in Kitchen*. Then we all say yes, not because we really want to eat there but because we don't want any other arguements. ;)


I can say that the food is awesome. Even I didn't finish my food. What's new? :p

What really caught my attention in that restaurant is they have verrrry huge (yes, HUGE!) utensils. The rice meals is being serve in a plate that bigger than the usual serving plate, about 15".

Sharing the pictures. =)

<-- Under The Sun (the one I ordered)
Seafood combination with chili cream sauce.
Price: P235.oo
















Clamming Up -->
Spaghetti with sauteed clams, white wine and Asian shrimp pesto.
Price: P150.00


<-- White Collar
Pasta with seafood in white sauce
Price: P215.00













Crowned King --->
Fettuccine with maya maya
Price: P235.00







<-- Pork Barrel
Pork belly served with fruit salsa, sweet and sour sauce
Price: P185.00







Water -->
Cold water with eucalyptus served in bottle
Price: Free =)










<-- And the chandelier in every table, so cozy.



Next time we eat there, I'll try Green with Envy (P185.00) - Grilled vegetables with garlic-mayo dressing, sauteed mushrooms, pesto, stewed tomato, queso de bola and cheddar cheese. ^_^



*Kitchen is located in Greenbelt 3, ground flr. Between Seattle's Best and Ebun Restaurant.

Labels: PARTY Harder - Work Hard

Wednesday, I woke up by an SMS. "Good morning. What time are you going to your office?" I ignored it and turned off my cellphone. Then I sleep again.

Then after i-don't-know-how-long, my mom is waking me up and said, "It's already 8AM! You gonna be late." I responded to her a sleepy "I'm not going to office mom!". Then grab Snoopy, hug it and sleep again. (Yep, I sleep with Snoopy stuffs.)

I woke up 10AM and packed my clothes. Gonna stay in my pad again starting this week. Weekends will be the only home-sweet-home for me. Pity me.

After bathing, I suddenly remember that I turned off my mobile. I look for it and opened it. Got lots of SMS. The one is I am here in your office. Can you come down, please? Time sent: 9:18 AM. Time read: 12:47 PM.

Oh, poor sender. But as a bad receiver, I just delete the message. Yeah yeah. Bad me. Anyway, I read the message late so what's the use?

I am about to go out when the rain pours! Lazy to bring umbrella, I waited the rain to stop. My mobile rang, saw the caller, got shocked, pressed the down key (to low down the volume 'cause I don't want to answer nor reject the call) and it's too late for me to realize that I activated the "any key answer" feature of my mobile. Uh-huh.

The conversation:
ME: Uh.. Yes.. no, no.. in condo. Yes.. no.. don't like.. ok.. yes.. ok.. ok.. bye..

What a senseless conversation, huh? Never mind it. My mobile beeps. Sissy, you're not going to office today? Are you sick? Well, am I sick? Yes, I am sick! Not literally.

Then the rain pours again. Oh my! There I am, walking along Makati Avenue under the rain! I took a bath again. Went to my friend's office. Then hop to another friend's office. Then took a cab in Ayala. Head off to Gateway. Freakin' traffic. What's new.

Poor me - very tired. And bad me - very late. Late in my date with my blogmates. I informed them I gonna be late. I thought they gonna go somewhere and I'll just follow but they waited for me! For soooo long. Oh, very bad Vanny.

Anyway, got the chance to meet Karmi, Lalaine, Dra. Rio, Tin, Cielo, Sheng, Ariane, Rob, Yeye, Arvin, Major and Master in person. And I am telling you, if it's nice having the bloggers around, it's much fun having the bloggers around PHYSICALLY! I really laugh out loud in their stories. We ate at Super Bowl of China and chill at Dencio's. (Thanks for the dinner Sissy! Meet me again before you go back to the foreign land, kk? And thanks for the frozen blue margarita, Major!)

*see the pictures here and here. (Lazy Vanny? Lolx.)

I went home 11PM and to my surprise, I have an unexpected and unwanted visitor, waiting at the lobby.

Visitor: Can we talk? You've been avoiding me since last week.
Me: No, we can't. I'm tired and it's late in the evening.
Visitor: Just for a while, please?
Me: I'm not yet ready to talk to you. Give me a break.

Bad me? Yes. Bad me. I am bad. But not as bad as you are. Y_Y


P.S.
Bloggers, I am NOT depressed. Lolx. :p
*this post is 2 days LATE. :(

Labels: Life Oh BitterSweet LIFE

Last night I went out with one of the special people in my life. Had dinner in one of the cozy(?) restaurant in Greenbelt. We are with my college friend but she left right after the dinner.

The dinner was definitely good. Hey, I really eat well when I'm with you, huh? I just miss eating dinner with this someone. While eating, we can't stop ourselves to catch up since the last time we talked is Wednesday(?). Ohh. Sorry, we just talked the other day and we sounded like we never talked for a month. I guess I'm practically used to talking with this someone everyday, all day. =)

After the dinner, we went to our favorite cozy(?) Err. What's with the word cozy, my dear? coffee shop. And there they go again, a misspelled name. I always have this thought in my head, when will they ever write my name correctly? ^_^


White chocolate moccha and Rasberry Black Currant

All for me? Lolx. Nah, that someone is looking for our chair in that over crowded place. Grrr. Why is there so many people out there?! Oh c'mon V, It's friday night!

Anyway, I had the best starbucks-bonding with this someone because I openly reveal something and I really expect some violent (getting OA?) reaction with this someone and I received just a teasing-reactions. We catch up some stories, looked back to some memories and lots of regrets that we can't be with each other everyday all day again so that we can face them together.

It's 2am when I arrived home. Even we parted our ways with smile in our face, I really feel terrible for some issue. A recent issue that, I thought, might give a crack in our friendship(?). I SMSed this someone.

"Thanks for being so understanding. I am really sorry for what I did. I just hope that the trust is still whole and intact after everything. As always, I enjoyed being with you 'cause I know I can always count on you. Love you and see you again."

And the replied I received.

"I'll just pretend I don't know anything so that it won't bother me, so that I'll forget about it. And you know I can't defy you. I will always be here... Love you too. Sleep tight and sweet dreams."

There it is. I guess I can call it a sweet night. Nothing's gonna stop us from being with each other.

Talk to you on Monday, kk? Err. This time, I hate weekend 'cause we can't talk. You know... And yes, i know! =(

Labels: Life Oh BitterSweet LIFE

My Lakbayan grade is C!
Aww. I am a purely Luzon Traveler. Wish I can go all the way to Visayas or Mindanao. :)

How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out at Lakbayan!

Created by Eugene Villar.


*The first tag is from Lalaine. =)

Show me how much of the Philippines have you traveled &add your link here…
1) Mind bubbles, 2) May, 3) VANITY KIT 4) SOMETHING PURPLE,5) A DETOUR, 6) Big Eyed Gal, 7) The Chronic Shopper, 8) Free IT and Blogger’s EBook, 9) Ness 10) Mica 11) Bernadeth 12) Bernisaac 13) Expressions and Thoughts 14) Our Family Story 15) Mumsified 16) J-B-L-O-G-G-E-D 17) Dakilang Islander 18) Mangyan Ako 19) Ifoundme 20) Jepoy 21) Mocha 22) Lalaine 23) Vanny


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**Then another tag from Lawstude.

The Rules:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

Here it goes:

1. I don't eat soft foods like gelatin, maja blanca, leche plan, yogurt, marshmallows and all soft foods. It makes me feel so ewww. I really really don't like the texture. When I was in CAT training in High School, an officer asked me to eat one glass of taho. I almost vomit when I took the first zip of it. He gave me 20 demerits and asked me to do 100 pumpings for not obeying his command. See, I'd rather have the punishment than to eat that kind of food.
   
   
2. I am sooo sensitive and soooo cry baby. I really have this heart that is so quick-melt. That's why I barely watch televisions. Not only those drama movies can make me cry, even the simple variety show! One time, my auntie is watching this noontime show and I passed by. After that I noticed myself crying because I saw the contestant crying because of the prize she got. I immediately went to my room so others won't see my tears.
   
   
3. I can stay awake for 48 hours straight and can stay active even without eating for 3 days straight. Just full of water. Oh correction, I tend to be hyperactive in these scenarios. I don't know why. I am really not a fan of foods. Unless.. (read #4)
   
   
4. If I am lonely (being heartbroken is counted :D), I tend to eat a lot (when I say lot, I really really mean soooper big servings) so that I won't think of the problem I am going through. I eat and eat and eat until I don't see any food in my refrigerator. If there is nothing else to eat in my fridge, I'll go out and buy one gallon ice cream, then there I am, eating alone in my room. (I hate me being like this. :()
   
   
5. I have four big cabinets full of my clothes, bags and accessories. And I can't say that I already wear/use all of it. I usually buy some of those things just for the sake of I already have it. Yeah yeah, I am so spendthrift. But hey, I am working with it. Please bear with me. And you can barely see me wearing my favorite clothes 'cause I want to save it's color and quality. ^_^
   
   
6. I have one brother, one step-brother and two one step-sister. (one big happy family, isn't it?) Being the youngest I am so proud to say that I am the first one who graduated in college - with honors, no failed grade and definitely on time. *wink wink*
   
   
7. Last but not the least, I looooove snoopy so much! Last Christmas, 14 snoopy stuffs was added to my collections. Those are from my friends and some of my family. Thanks guys, you really really know how to make me float in happiness. =)

There you go. I'll pass this taggie to the following:

*to be updated

Labels: Rambled WORDS

It's such a painful weekend. A week long crying because of the tragedy in our life.

But thanks to the people who makes me.. uhmm.. laugh? cook? and shop? (again?)

Saturday, unending tears come out in my eyes all day long. Thanks to a blogger that is soooo funny that makes me laugh. At least I ended the mournful anniversary with a smile. You know who you are. A big thanks. ^_^

Sunday, unending tears still come out in my eyes in the morning. Thanks to my to-the-rescue college friends, no tears come out in the afternoon. We cooked and we cooked and we cooked again. The original plan is swimming in our pad but since we used all of the time cooking, we just ate and ate and ate again. Five dishes, two flavor of family size pizza, two flavor fruit shakes, two kinds of 1 liter sodas (i didn't drink this one) - all good for more than a dozen people but eaten by only 6 of us. ^_^

Monday, unending tears still come out in my eyes from the moment I woke up. Thanks to my mom, the shopping-therapy works on me her(??). Yeah right. I went to the mall again, but this time, I'm with my momma. I asked her to have a lunch date with me since I am not around in our house last Sunday (we usually have a special lunch every Sunday, you know.. the family day thinggy. :)) because I stayed in my pad. But the lunch date was turned to shopping date for my mom. She asked me to buy her two tops, one pants and one shoes. Looks like mom is preparing for a real date, huh. =)

That's my three ways to conquer loneliness. Talk to someone that can listen to my silent screams and make me laugh afterwards. Eat as if it's my first time to see foods (I considered this as the worst way of all, hate the fact that I tend to eat a lot when I am sad esp when I already talked about the reason of my sadness.). And lastly, shop without worrying my debit card exceeds the minimum maintaining balance. Yay!

Anyway, tomorrow will be the students day! Classes will resume. Good luck students! Remember the old saying, study hard (party harder??). Kidding. ^_^

And good luck to my niece. She's in Kinder II. Aim for the 1st honor bebeh, ok? (She's third honors when she's in Kinder I). Mama Vanny is so proud of you. ^_^

Labels: Life Oh BitterSweet LIFE

June 7, 2007. Morning. 10:00AM. A usual sweet-phone-talk with my sooo special friend (SF).

SF: How's my neyney? You ate the sandwich I made for you?
Me: I didn't eat it yet. Not hungry.
SF: Better eat it. You didn't ate your bfast.
Me: Ok ok. I'll eat it later. Where are you now?
SF: I'm on my way to ---'s house.
Me: Are you going to fetch them? Where are you going after that?
SF:To ----. The rest of the guys are there already.
Me: Can you just go here in office? Wanna have lunch with you. Bring the rest of the gang here, ok?
SF: Ney, it's not possible. ---- is waiting for us there. I'll just fetch you after office, ok?
Me: *not talking*
SF: Neyney.. ---- will get mad at us if we didn't arrive there before 1pm.
Me: *still not talking*
SF: You're not talking anymore. Don't get mad, please?
Me: If you did not go here by lunch, I won't eat.
SF: Ok ok. You win. But I have a condition. We are going to have lunch but you are going to eat all foods that I'll put in your plate. No left overs.
Me: Deal! As if you can defy me. Drive carefully, ok? Take care.

Yeah. That's how spoiled I am with him. Actually, with them. To all of them, I am such a princess.

After 30 minutes.

SF: We're on our way there in your office. I'm with BL, FR and CB.
Me: Ok. Why are you using your phone while driving? Pass the phone to CB.
SF: I'm not the driver now. Thanks to FR. *laughs*
Me: Good. So, where are we going to eat?
SF: China Palace? Super Bowl? Hai? Where do you want?
Me: *sarcastic* Have you tried any food other than chinese cuisine? In your house, chinese food. In CB's house, chinese food again. C'mon!
SF: *laughs* Then you decide where are we going to eat.
Me: Can I talk to CB?


CB: My Majesty, what can I do for you?
Me: *Laughs* Where's your sister? Is she not coming?
CB: She's in the other car with ----. Test drive. *laughs*
Me: Ok ok. I'll talk to BL (a friend that i loooove so much). See you later.
CB: As you say so, my Majesty.


BL: Hi Strawberry, love you!
Me: Love you too, Blueberry. Where do you wanna eat?
BL: Anywhere. SF said he wanna eat in Hai. As always.
Me: Chinese food again? I want pasta. Let's eat in Itallianis. Is it OK with you?
BL: If you want to eat there my sweetie Strawberry. I'll just tell SF.
Me: Good. I'll go inside, you guys take care ok?
BL: Yep, we will. See you later my Strawberry.
Me: Ok. Bye bye. Love you. Pass the phone to SF.
BL: Love you more. See you.


Yes, that's how they treat me. Spoiled kiddo. And that's how sweet we are to each other. Those endearment names, those take care's, those I love you.

I always turn to them whether I am happy or sad. Because with them, there is no dull moments. Specially when I am with BL. With him, I can feel that I am the queen of the world.

My mobile beeps. Sms from SF, it says "Neyney, we just had our dinner last night in Itallianis. You want to eat in Sbarro or.. in Hai? Hehe"

His stomach really wants an oriental food, eh? It's unquestionable. He's a Chinese lad. But I'm going to have dinner with him the next day at his house. It means chinese foods again. And also, for my own reason, I need to choose Sbarro.

So I replied, "Sbarro! Haha. Sbarro serves small compare to Hai. So i can do your deal. Call me if you're just block away, ok?


Lunch time. No call. No text. No nothing.

I just went to the cafeteria with my officemates. But I didn't eat. Still trying to contact them, no answer. I call them several times, no answer. I even texted him that I am so mad and he better have the best alibi in the world why he's not answering.

Almost 1pm. My mobile rings. It's SF's cousin.

The call just lasts few minutes. Then there I am, running as fast as I can. Took a cab, head off to the hospital.


........

My whole world turns black and white. Yeah. They had the worst car accident. Y_Y

Can't blab the details. Maybe I still can't imagine how they suffer. All I know is that's the reason why I lost two of my friends, CB and BL =(

CB, who thought me how to be strong and weak in a positive way. who treat me as his most important cousin.

BL who thought me the real meaning of sacrifice. Who tought me to keep every promise that I made. With him, every single promise he made is a real promise. He kept all his promise to me but not the promise he made that he won't leave me no matter what happen. =(

I really really miss My Blueberry. It took me forever to give up on him. I really can't. But just like what everybody says, I need to. =(

By that time, SF is in coma. For more than three months. Everyday, every night. I visit him in the hospital. Talking to him, crying, and almost lose my hope. I even blame myself for what happened to them. If I didn't insist for that lunch, they wouldn't go that road. But I learned to forgive myself and leave everything to God.

SF is out of the country now (he's only for a vacation here when the accident happened), trying to regain his good posture and trying to live normal. He's supposed to be here last summer, but he needs his therapy there. So, SF i really wish you well. I miss us so much. Don't worry, I'll be ok today. I just don't know for tom..

And today, a bad dream awakened me. Yes, the accident is haunting my inner me. It's already one year ago. How will I cope up with the mournful anniversary. Y_Y

Labels: Confession of a Fickle Mind, Life Oh BitterSweet LIFE

From Zambales to Pangasinan to Puerto Galera. That's not how I spent my last weekend. That's how the venue of our outing went through. Five days before the date, we change the venue from Zambales to Pangasinan. And one day before the date, we change the venue again from Pangasinan to Puerto Galera. Imagine that, one day before. Oh geeze.

I am wrong when I blab here that nothing's gonna stop us, even the storm. Yeah. We change the venue because of bad weather in Northern Luzon. So no choice, we'll just go to Puerto Galera. But hey, don't get me wrong. I love being in Galera yet I am suppper excited in that outing becuase I thought we'll be going to Dasol Pangasinan.

But I really had fun! (Oopps. Is that an exclamation point, V? Positive exclamation point, i suppose.) So good spending your weekend with your good friends. Love you guys! ^_^

Just sharing the pictures.


just arrived :p


Galera trends ^_^


mountain(??) hike


a friend of mine said i look like a lost girl here ^_^


gimmick in i-forgot-the-name bar


the harmless-but-kickin Mindoro Sling


on our way to Coral Garden and two islands


pose to the max? feeling! lolx.


the famous pose in beach


wacky pinched face, not pa-cute pinched face pose, V

A friend said that I'm selfish, just posting MY pictures here in my blog. No view, no picture of my friends, no others. Hey dear, you said it right, MY blog. This is MY blog. So leave it to me. Isn't my pictures enough for a nice view? Fighting spirit! ^_^

Hey my sweetie bloggers, in case you got so bored to my pictures, just visit my multiply page here so you'll get more boring view. Lolx. =)

Oh, it's Sunday night when I arrived in my house, I really really feel i'm sooo sizzlin' HOT and blushing Red. Literally. Because of sunburn. But that's ok. Worth it. ^_^

Hey, Dasol Bay Pangasinan, wait for us there next month! We gonna conquer you. =)

Labels: PARTY Harder - Work Hard