It's friday night. And I am still here in office. And I will still be here tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. Err. I guess Cinderella is sooo workaholic, huh. No, she's not! She just got no choice. =( Our usual gimmick every Friday night waved bye bye to me since I don't know when. Poor me.

Here I am, stealing some time and taking a break from sooo exhausting program codes. I think taking a break won't make me a bad employee, ayt? Since I am working 12 hours or more everyday these past few days. So here I am, stealing 15 minutes and TADA! I am blogging now. Weee. :D

What's new with me outside this freakin' tiring office? Hmmm.

Do I need to blab this here or just keep it to myself? Err. Hope it's ok with you if I do, ayt? :p

Last Wednesday night, I did this act and I totally wonder why. What I dis was.. uhmm.. I mean.. Err. I think I don't want to blab it in details. Forgive me.

So after a while when I did that childish? act, I realized some feelings inside of me. I guess I am just afraid I might lose you even without having you that's why I did that action. Sorry if I am paranoid. But am I paranoid enough? Or too paranoid? Lolx. =)

But it's official, I burst out those special words to you last night (if you can consider 3AM a night). It's just so funny that you say it first and added "too" at the end of those words to save me 'cause I am too shy to say it aloud at first. toinks! :p

You asked me before if we are ready for a serious one. So, what do you think? Who knows, you're the one who can really tell me that LDR is not that hard.

Opps. I gtg. My 15 minutes break is done. But hey, maybe I'll go home straight so I can lay my back in my bed. Good idea, right? Because I am so freakin tired now.

To my mystery man, take care always and sorry for being so palaaway. ^__^

I'll be offline for some time again, bloggers! *sigh*

Hey bloggers, how you doing?

It's Saturday! 9:30 in the evening. And I just got home.. From shopping? Nah. From gimmick? More than NO!

Because I just got home from WORK! Hell yeah, you read it right. From work. *sigh*

And I am going to work again tomorrow! I am seeing my social life waving buh-bye to me. Waaaah. Sunday, our family day.. and I gonna spend my whole day in office?! Pity me. Y_Y

That's why I can't visit your blog, guys. forgive me. I am so freaking busy! I'll be back asap.

As I was typing this entry, I remember my picture I took when I was starting my programmer career last 2006. (I worked as Web Designer two months after I graduated last 2005 then I shift to Programming career because web designing bores me. Sorry to web designers. Peace out. ;p)

Here it is.


When I took that picture, I don't know if I am tired working or tired crying. And look, I even voice out my feelings using programming language.

So am I workaholic? Yes? No, I am not! *sniff sniff*

Labels: WORK Matters

What's so good about having crazy friends?
You can hurt them physically and they'll definitely hit you back.
You can curse them in their faces, then all of yuu will laugh.
You can tell them all the crazy stiffs in your head, then you'll find out they're a lot crazier.
With them, you will never feel that you are alone.
With them, you can be yourself all the time, to hell with other people!
No pretensions, no fiction, no sh*ts..
Nothing's better than having crazy friends!

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Yeah right. Nothing's better than having crazy friends.. like AT3! ^__^

Happy 6th anniversary AT3. Thanks to my twin friend for this topic. =)

I am one day late in posting this event. And yes, I am guilty that work can ruin the bond of friendship. Derived from the most controversial line - "Studies can ruin the bond of friendship." though we are not guilty in that because admit it AT3, most of us are grade conscious in our college life and studying is our one way of bonding!! =)

And now, most of us are busy as bee in our work. Mamita, what happen to our plan after the graduation that we need to see each other every other week? Err. I guess, we are busier than bee now.

Btw, I am very excited to our reunion next week. See you, physically not only in YM, sooooon guys!

PS.
AT3, I am not drinking beer anymore, can I bring my own drink? Lolx. And hey hey hey! Guys! Next time, don't chat during office hours! That's not a good habit.
Vanny <-- bitter because she don't have YM in her office. Lolx. =)

Labels: Life Oh BitterSweet LIFE

Warning: This post is work related. If it bores you, click here.^_^

I blab here about the unwanted errors in my project in office. Did I mention that when I opened my email I got 71 errors? Grrr. I don't know how the list grows fast.

Last week, our Project Manager (PM) asked me how's my project doing. I told him that I am done with the 65% of it. He got furious because we I only have two weeks remaining for development.

And then he asked me how can I rate my skills as a programmer. I don't know how will I answer it correctly. If I say above 90, I will sound over confident. 80 will make me under confident. "85, Sir" is what I answered, for the sake of safe answer. Then he responded like "90 and up is what I am looking for. Vanny, more effort and work harder".

Aww. That hurts! More effort? Is that mean working 12 hours a day is not enough effort? *sigh*

Using my great mantra (Vanny, if someone is challenging you then prove to him that he made the biggest mistake ever.), I fixed the errors in just two days! See, I saved one week of our timeline. *wink*

Last Tuesday, the other team presented their system. Oh, I am developing a system that needs to merge with their system - two totally different systems means two different databases needed to combine. That's harsh!

After they presented it, I said my remarkable line What's the use of that lower part? The page will still work if you remove it, right?

Then I heard myself saying out loud my (constructive?) criticisms about the way they code (some are manually coded), about the security risk of the system (some of the pages are prone to SQL injection, which can crash their database by hackers in just one second), about the look of their webpages (as a former web designer, I noticed even the size of their buttons and textboxes.) and about everything.

Then I told my PM that I will never pattern my system to that system just because of the reason he always give to me "Since the other system is already working, pattern yours to them."

Our PM just stare at me and command the other member to take note of my criticisms. After the presentation, it revealed that system was develop 4 years ago and the immediate supervisor of the programmer who develop it was no other than my PM. Tsk tsk. Oh well, I told myself to shut my mouth next presentation. Lolx.

After three hours, I got message from my PM.

"Ms. Adrados, I think you perform well and you have a big potential. Are you interested to join my team? You probably underrate yourself with 85%. In fact, you are more than 95%."

Weeh. It smells PIRATE! ^_^ I don't know how will I answer his question. My friend told me to say yes but first, I should demand for an increase of salary. Lolx. Oh well.. I really don't know. I need to consider lots of things before I decide.

Labels: WORK Matters

My unannounced hiatus is over. Forgive me. Last Thursday, I packed my clothes and went back to my hometown, Subic, and leave my life here in Manila temporarily. Oh geeze, I wish that temporarily is not this sooo short!

4 days and 5 nights is not enough! But I must be thankful that I got those time. Thanks to my un-filed OT. I got free time for my off-sets absences in office. =)

Few weeks ago, I am sooo physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted! From never ending program coding down to unnamed must-not-name someone who is still bugging me until now plus some harsh uninvited visitors in my online home that begs for my attention. That's why I decided to take a break.

When something (and someone) is bothering me, I run to the joy of my life. When I need someone who can tell straight to my face without any hesitations that I am doing a wrong thing, I run to the joy of my life. When I wanted to wake up from the reality of life, I run to the joy of my life.

Bloggers, meet my bestfriend, the only one who can call me gaga in a sweetest sweet way. =)

I spent my first day of leave with her and with my lovely niece in Subic Duty Free. Shopping and grocery with two push carts! Oh. Did I say two? What I mean is three push carts. ^_^

Being with her, I totally forget the reasons why I temporarily leave Manila. All I know is I am totally happy being with the one who can give me the real meaning of JOY in every millisecond I am with her.


with my bessy and my niecey =)

I remember how she really made me cry with just one SMS once upon a time. What's the content of her SMS? It simply says "Vanny..." And there I am, crying while creating my longest SMS created ever. Too shallow to cry in that SMS? Forgive me. We lost our contacts for almost 5 months and I can't find her even in their own house! And then one day, I received that SMS from an unidentified number. And my heart really feel that the sender is her.. ;)

I love you sooo much bessy! And I will always be here for you no matter what happen. I really miss our nova-coke-vcut-royal bonding when we are in High School.

Click here to see our ever pa-cute wacky pix. =)

Labels: Life Oh BitterSweet LIFE

Yesterday, I'd able to fix the errors in my program in time. Good for me. Even the server was down the whole morning and the after lunch time that it would be up became 3PM. I made the remedy for those errors all by myself. My partner left the company and all burden was in my head, alone.

I took my medicine but I still feel sooo weak. I went to my pad alone and sleep alone with my dear snoopy stuffs. I woke up early this morning, read one chapter of Purpose Driven Life then fix myself, went to office, still feeling weak.

I am about to enter the building when someone tap me at my shoulder.

Someone: Good morning! I bought you a breakfast. Eat this and take your meds. (*hands me the food and the medicines.*)
Me: Thanks. But I'm not hungry.
Someone: No is not acceptable. You need to eat this.
Me: I need to go inside and work early. My Project Manager might looking for me now.
Someone: I don't care. All I care is you, eating your breakfast and taking your medicines on time. Don't be so hardheaded. (*Grab my hand and drag me to Countrystyle, located in front of our office.*)

That someone ordered two spaghetti meal and two hot chocolate drink.

Someone: Here, eat this and just bring the food I bought a while ago. Eat that later in your snack break.
Me: (*Still not eating*)
Someone: Fine, if you don't eat then nobody will stand up here. You won't go to that office without eating your breakfast.
Me: (*just hold the hot chocolate drink but just stare to the spaghetti*)
Someone: Eat that spaghetti, please? I'll be back.(*Went out, then came back holding a cold fresh milk.*)
Someone: You're not drinking hot drinks, right? Just drink this milk.

And yes, though I hate to admit, I ate the spaghetti and drink the milk.


BLT sandwich and Chocolate drink for my snack from must-not-named someone

Before I entered our building, I heard someone saying, I'll just go to my office after lunch. Let's eat lunch together, I'll wait you here outside, ok?

I didn't respond and entered the building without looking back. Thinking if I will show up my face later in that lunch.


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Yeah yeah. I see the care. I see the effort. Someone went all the way here in my office, traveled not-so-far, did not report to office in the morning and showed up here in my office surprisingly, just to be sure that I eat proper meal at proper time.

But hey! The Your problem is.. Cinderella don't want to sleep again. Not now. Sorry. =(

Labels: Confession of a Fickle Mind