Hi there. Pardon me for invading this blog. Actually this is my 2nd post here in my jiejie's blog. That's the time I wrote a surprise post to ate Vanny for a certain event.

But this time, This post is for the readers. I want to ask all of you for a help. Please pray for my ate Vanny.

zhu ni zaori kangfu, jie jie Vanny. wo men bu hui pao qi ni de. ni xi huan ma? wo men hui yong yuan shi ni de jia ren. wo men ai ni.

Shobe.

It's not a secret that I am big fan of SNOOPY. I really really love snoopy. Actually, it's weird that I don't know the story of snoopy yet I love it. Er. Confusing? ;)

I think I already blab the story behind it. But it's in my old blog, my disappearing blog. So just for fun, I'll blab it again. I started collecting snoopy stuffs since 3rd year High School. I got mad at a friend who supposedly will fetch me at my house early in the morning but he didn't able to because he woke up late. For his peace offering, he gave me a snoopy stuff toy. Then he teased me asking "Who is the favorite dog of Mickey Mouse?"

After he said that, I burst a big laugh. Because that question is the same question I received when we are playing The Weakest Link in our school. Then I scream a super dooper confident answer - SNOOPY!!! In other words, I'm the weakest link. Poor Vanny. But nice job, my dear B.

Oh, this post is not about snoopy. Last Friday, my officemate asked me what will i do with these stuffs.

coin purse

cellphone pouch
cellphone accessory
Oh, don't get me wrong. I still have snoopy in these stuffs, ayt? Snoopy will always be snoopy for me. There's no doubt. But I bought these stuffs 'cause I badly miss my Prince Frogi. I hope you can feel that. =(

So long bloggers! Happy Sunday! =)

Er. I almost forgot to blab. I will be watching Rihanna and Chris Brown Concert tonight with my college friends. Original plan is I will watch it with him, but too bad something went wrong. Oh well. I really really really miss you.

Labels: THINGS Cost A Love

I received an expected-but-i-am-afraid-slash-thrilled-to-answer long distance phone call early this morning. Early, as in early. 3 o'clock in the morning. Er. * Guys, I told you to be fair. I bet you all know our time difference, ayt? *

Expected because I'm so sure Shobe read my last post and she'll tell J about this. Afraid because I am sooo sure that they will insist again (for more than a hundred times) about the vacation they are offering. Thrilled because I know almost all of my problems will be handled ..using their less word (whatever it means, it's just us who understand it).

The call lasted for more than an hour. But it feels like just a few minutes. Hours is not enough to talk about these crazy thoughts in my (and their) mind. The last words J uttered are still spinning in my head now.

Be well, ok? Or else, I will go back there in the Philippines and I'll prove to you that my offer is still available.

So, I need to be OK so that their offer will be forfieted. Well, I am ok. Really, I am ok. Super duper ok. Er. V, you are a terrible liar.

But I think they are right. Why would I let myself suffer? Why would I make myself so miserable by locking myself in my not-so-organize room? Why would I let my eyes sore by crying all day and all night long? Why would I let my problems turn me down? If I can stand up and let everyone know that I am VANNY.

No one can stop that. No one can stop ME from being ME. Even those harsh words, even those big problems, even those people who turn me down. Even those people who I thought will not loose their grip on me. Even Los Angeles, California. Haha. Just kiddin' guys. *wink*

I almost forgot that I have the greatest non-biological family. Thanks so much people. For always being there. You are the best gift I ever had. And forever I will have. =)

If I have lots of problems, it doesn't mean I will be down. If I say I will not continue, it doesn't mean that I will stop. If I say that I am tired, it doesn't mean that I will rest. And lastly if I say I am weak, it doesn't mean that I am not strong. I guess I am still the same. The simple complex simple(???) yet complicated girl.

And if I say I won't go with all of you, it doesn't mean that I don't want to. It's just that I am not yet ready to leave this polluted town. Haha. And you know that I can''t leave him.. them. Love you all guys! =)

Labels: Life Oh BitterSweet LIFE

One minute ago, I was talking to my deary gurl over the phone.

We had some chitter chatter thinggy. She sound sooo tired because of OT. So I teased her. A tease that made me shock, too, after bursting those words.

You're rendering overtime so that you'll earn money for my fare to LA, huh?

And what she said?

Sorry, you chose this path. So suffer from your decision not so long time ago.

Then now, as I am digesting our conversation, I am thinking that why would I let myself suffer from that decision? If the offer is still available, right J? Ohh. LA. My very sweet temptation for my very sweet escape to everything in this freaking problems.

If B didn't allow me to go to his province, Quezon, just like what he told me in my dream when I am lying in an awkward white bed then maybe he'll be happy to see me I am with the people with an open arms that we love and trust more than the words "love" and "trust" can offer.

But hey, stop it. I am afraid that decision is not fair. So I think I'll just come to you, B. Not fair because.. Wait. But.. But.. Vacation in LA is not bad, ayt? Er. Fine fine. The offer is not just a vacation. It is somethinglike lifetime vacation. Oh yes. I am so fickle minded. =(

PS.
Please bear with me. I will hibernate. I don't want to. But I need to.

Labels: Confession of a Fickle Mind